Kiddo

It wasn't supposed to get this far. i'm tired of waiting. i'm really depressed. i'm crying all the time. i have no motivation. i've screwed school up. i just want him.

~*maria*~

Little Lady

Maybe people are right.

Am i wasting my time?

Maybe i should forget about him and settle for someone closer to home.

i'm screwing this up. i really don't think he'll have the same feelings if we meet.

i'm not pretty.

i'm annoying

i'm kind of a bitch.

Just watch me screw this up. i bet you i can.

~*maria*~

Quite Possibly

"As much as I would like to say yes, I can't out of respect," he said. "I've got a lot of things going on in my life and I can't bring another person into it all. If I can keep up this forward momentum I have going then I can see taking our friendship further. I just can't jump into a relationship yet. Not when I still have so much on my plate."

So i have to wait for him to clear some room on his plate for me. i know patience is not one of my virtues, but i will try my best. He's worth it.

~*maria*~

i'm So Lonely For Her

It's not until you try to sleep after burning all the friendly bridges and being rejected in the nicest possible way by a man you feel very strongly for that you really realize how it feels to be alone.

~*maria*~

Dreaming

The realization that it was just a dream when you wake up is the worst part of it. i could still feel his fingers between mine. i laid in bed and just thought about it for what seemed like hours. i wish i could just call him mine.

~*maria*~