Out With Sartre And Camus

i'm still unsure. About pretty much everything in my life right now. It's making it very difficult to care about anything. That's bad.

~*maria*~

LHC

i'm still not sure about MIAD. But i guess that's normal right? Not everyone there can be 100% sure they want to be there, right?

On a much awesomer note, the human race is awesome. Scientists in Sweden flipped the switch to the "ON" position of the Large Hadron Collider today. Lots of people were terrified it would suck the world into a black hole or something. Obviously it hasn't yet. Yet. You should really read about this thing. It's amazing. It was built and collaborated on with over eight thousand physicists from over 85 countries as well as hundreds of universities and laboratories. And it's entire purpose is crazy. It's really interesting. Read about it. Also, for enjoyment, if you're ever wondering if the Large Hadron Collider has destroyed the world yet, this is the top website to visit.

~*maria*~

Dizzy In Despair

i told someone that i suck at drawing.

Then they asked me, "If you suck at drawing, why are you here?"

i didn't know.

i'm not good at any kind of art.

Even all the other photo majors can at least draw.

But i can't figure out what else to do with my life.

i don't belong anywhere.

And i feel so alone.

~*maria*~

Going Back On my Word

i was wrong. Oh my god, how wrong i was. i don't know what that sabbatical from my feelings was or what caused it. i guess i was just too focused on school and now that i know what i'm doing there, i have more time to focus on things i really don't want to. i was with him for two days straight. i slept mere feet from him and i still couldn't do what my brain was screaming at me to do. i still couldn't bring myself to stop being scared. my head was screaming, "JUST DO IT! There's nothing to be so scared of!" But i couldn't. But i wouldn't trade that birthday for anything.

~*maria*~

Sleeping

Fuck.I hate guys.

~*maria*~

Another Year

i'm another year older.

~*maria*~

Blogging About The 50's

i feel like i'm in high school again. i like it and i hate it. Obviously, MIAD is not my high school. And i love it there. But my guy problems are exactly the same. It's confusing me. FUCK!

~*maria*~