I'm sick of seeing you cry and wasting all your time on someone who will never care enough to make you feel loved, to make you feel safe. I would drop my life to take his place.
No wonder i got into MIAD. Read this. i can be very inspirational when i want to be. i wonder where all this passion went?
2. Describe why you would like to attend MIAD and what you hope to gain from a MIAD education.
I would like to attend MIAD because one of my greatest passions is photography and I believe that MIAD has the tools to teach me everything I could ever want to know about the field. Up until recently, my goal for college was to go to the University of Wisconsin-Madison. I grew up around it and ever since I can remember, I have wanted to go there. However, when I picked up photography about a year ago, that plan was no longer the one I wanted to follow. After taking a few shots of random things, I discovered that this is something I greatly enjoy. I love taking a picture and capturing the feeling of the moment or capturing the world, unadulterated.
What I would love to do with my photography, is fuse it with my other great passion: music. I would like to work at a concert venue and take photos of concerts, or work for a music magazine like AP. However, the greatest thing I could ever do with photography is capture the real world. I believe the news media is showing the world with a bias. They show what they want and not what the people need to know. I would like to go to foreign places, or even down the street in our own neighborhood, and show people that the world is a wonderful but also horrible place. I want to show them every emotion possible. I want to capture people bonding together in times of trouble, or countries falling apart in turmoil. Most of all, I would just like to make a difference, however big or small it may be. I believe the people at MIAD can teach me how to follow my dreams in the best possible way.
I walk into her room, and she is crying. "I don't know what to tell you," I say.
"I think that maybe it's just bad luck. We could have been born rich, and thin, and powerful. We could have been worth their time."
She nods, acknowledging that we're on the same page.
"I can't decide. I can't decide whether I'd rather have never met her, or whether the pain was worth the happiness. I mean, it's more pain than I've ever felt, but...I was happy."
I've been saying that "more pain than I've ever felt" thing a lot recently. I'm beginning to bore myself.
"So I don't know what to tell you. I don't know whether it's better to have never had it, or to have had it and lost it. I've been thinking about it a lot recently, and, if you look at it philosophically, it doesn't make sense. The pain is unavoidable. Either somebody gets dumped or somebody dies, there's no way out..."
"...but it's not just the ending, it's the whole concept. It's giving such a huge part of yourself to someone whose intentions you can never truly know; sacrificing so much of your freedom of choice for a few moments, or months, or years of pleasure."
These are words I've said before, a million times in my head, before Emily and after. I pause, let it go quiet. It's not even awkward.
"I want to blog this," I say. "Is there anything you want to say? Is there anything you want me to tell them?"
"It's retarded," she whispers.
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My sister is in love, and alone. I am also in love. I am also alone. --Pauer
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"Pain hardens, and great pain hardens greatly, whatever the comforters say. And suffering does not ennoble, though it may occasionaly lend a certain rigid dignity of manner to the suffering frame." --Antonia S. Byatt
i have, quite foolishly, thought i was in love before. But i wasn't. However, i have never had a guy make me feel like Joe does. i'm not nervous around him. i can be myself without any pressure. He makes me feel beautiful (and tells me that i am all the time). It's terrifying knowing how much i've invested in him. But i'm excited to see where this goes. It's been seven months. i hope there are a lot more coming.
