Wednesday, November 2, 2011

"Everything excellent is as difficult as it is rare."

i went to an AHA (Atheists, Humanists, and Agnostics) meeting tonight. It was fun and i will be going to more. But Kyle's very involved in the group. He ran the meeting tonight. i was talking with him afterward. i was just going to say hi and then go home. But he asked when i wanted to hang out again.

i'm not sure that's a good idea.

i've been thinking about it for the past couple days, and i really don't think i should hang out with him for a while. i mean i really want to but i don't know if that's because i really actually want to be friends with him or because i still have feelings for him and i truly believe he made a mistake by letting me go. i really do believe that. If it's just that i really want to be friends with him, then eventually i should be able to hang out with him without feeling like crap. But if it's solely the other reason then i know how us hanging out this weekend will end: With me crying. And i'm kind of sick of that.

i know what my friends would say. They'd say not to. And i know they're probably right. But will i listen to them? i'm not sure yet.

i didn't give him an answer. i told him i'd let him know for sure later.

~*maria*~

1 comment:

Amanda said...

do yourself a favor and stay away from him for a while. maybe not a long time, but at least a week or two and see how you feel. going places where you know he's going to be is a bad idea.