Forward-Thinking

Moses and i had a conversation about John today. Moses said he felt john was distancing himself from everyone. i told him he was. That he didn't feel he had anything in common with his friends anymore. Moses couldn't grasp the fact that he didn't have to talk to John about it. He just needed to be a friend to John.

i know how you feel, John. i've burnt so many bridges because of that feeling i can't even keep them all straight anymore. i just wish i had had a little sister to recognize the signs before it was too late. Before i was left with two people i consider friends. i'm not sure i have ever said this to you, but i love you, John. You're my best friend, my man of honor. And i'm completely serious, when i get married, you will be right up there as my man of honor.

i think i've found the Pauer Sibling theme song.

Will I have learned so very little
When these bones are old and brittle?
I wait to talk when I should listen
And cloud mistakes with false revisions

All my friends are forward-thinking
Getting hitched and quitting drinking
And I can feel them pulling away
As I'm resigned to stay the same

And you can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"

I was once a loyal lover
Whose lips did never seek another's
But now each love's more like a match
A blinding spark that burns out fast

And they all conclude with the same sentence:
"I've never met someone more self-centered
Who thinks that life with a nice girl's like
Waiting for a bus to work"

And you can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"
And you can't even begin to believe
There's so many bridges engulfed in flames behind me

If you deem it so
Just cut the cord and go
You'll be fine
There's plenty of hills to climb

You can't even begin to know
How many times I've told myself "I told you so"
And you can't even begin to believe
There's so many bridges engulfed in flames behind me

~*maria*~
--I Was Once A Loyal Lover, Death Cab for Cutie