Ups & Downs

i couldn't stop crying. It was horrible. All of my coworkers kept asking me, "Are you okay?" which just made me cry harder. i still don't know why i was crying. Partially because i hate my life, but that wasn't the whole reason. i've been unhappy with my life for seven years, there's always another reason.

And I'm gonna get to the bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
And I'll get the rope
From in the house
Survey the scene
Find two of the tallest trees
And I'd tie myself up
Above the cool air
To dangle in the twilight

And I'm gonna get to the bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
As my skin collects in a pile on the ground
I'll radiate heat and turn off my head
And just pretend that i don't exist
Then I'll see clearly to the end
Of the ropes that I've been hanging form
As they loosen from the trees
And plummet to the ground
Be impaled and turned around
I'm finally free from the ups and downs

~*maria*~
--Ups & Downs, Saves the Day