" i'm so glad she had the courage that i will never possess again."
i had a slight bout of courage at about 6:30 this morning. It made me realize why i lost all my courage in the first place. Even if you have the courage to change your life, it does not mean it will. i've known for a long time that if i wanted my life to be different i couldn't just sit around and wait for it to change, i needed to do something about it. So i did. And i'm worse off than i was before. i didn't even cry. i laughed the rest of the 45 minutes home. Probably because it all went exactly how i thought it would. But the thin sliver of hope that people had given to me, that i had given myself, was crushed within seconds. i have yet to cry.
"Take a chance because you never know how absolutely perfect something could be." That's complete bullshit. i have nothing but disappointment left.
~*maria*~
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